musikatology

Hazeeeee

My God. The weather is really killing me. The haze is terrible. I have never seen this kind of thick haze in years since my secondary school days. The worse is for those who are fasting in this holy month. My throat is so dry even after I break my fast in the evening.

anyway, I have been feeling so lethargic after giving my whole living room a 'whitewash' that is painting the whole house white before adding the layer of colour coat. I did that alone!! Not even my able bodied brothers were able to help. This year I'm going to be selfish and celebrate hari raya alone at home. haha! But this year it will be different I will have to give out money.... I cant receive any green packets anymore...... waaaarrrgghhhh.. I guess that's part and parcel of becoming an adult and working. Oh well..

Anyway the show that happened on the 30th of september 2006. I'll load up more when I receive the pictures from Fauzi Ravi.


The show set at Cool Deck Siloso Beach Arabian Nights.

posted by yEd @ 4:16 PM 0 comments

Achievement

Hi all.. Today is the 06th of October 2006. It has been eight months since I last smoked a stick of cigarette. I stopped smoking on my birthday. This achievement is not as easy as how I typed my last 3 sentences. It really took pains, effort and a lot of mental endurance for me to quit.

I use to be a damn heavy smoker and those who knows me long enough can testify that very fact. I have to admit it is not east to quit.

1)The smell that lingers from your friend's stick just teases your mind and at the same time torturing it..Squeezing every ounce of enduring energy you have in your brain while putting on smile on your face while they say" hey come one.. You cant quit.. Have a stick.. No harm lah! Tomorrow can still quit what.. hahaha.."

2) When your really stressed out and u need that bloody stick to so call "relax" your mind while you have trouble the whole day or when someone just doesn't leave you in a peaceful state on that day.

3) Especially when u have just eaten a great meal and you feel so full and that piece of harmful stick would just put your mind in heaven. Or when you are heading to the toilet to ease yourself big time. The long time habits are just so hard to change.

4) Friends teasing me asking me whether its my mother/girlfriend asking me to quit. Come to think of it, its so dumb/funny/ridiculous (choose one) that they have to ask that when its my lungs we are talking about.

But now after eight months I am laughing silently in my heart at those who ever laughed at me for making the effort to quit, the 13245212457th God knows how many attempts to quit. Smelling the lingering cigarette smell from their mouth just irks me out. But I can understand. Now I understand how a non smoker would feel and understand why they said "eh you just smoke ah?.. Smelly sia..". I must tell you. It is smelly. It gives you a natural bad breath.You can try if you want to. haa!

But then again I cant say I have completely stopped smoking till I reach my personal milestone which is my next birthday. That will only take time. Four months to be exact.

It is not impossible to quit. Don't lie to yourself.

Till then, I am happy not to be smoking and feeling so good at the same time.

posted by yEd @ 12:22 AM 3 comments