Boring.
ok here i am again complaining and blabbering nonsense. firstly today is Friday the 13th in case some of you dint noe that. someone reminded me over and over again yesterday. i really dont know what does this day stands for. bad luck? hmmm.. i did encounter something bad on last year's friday the 13th.. but maybe it was just bad coincidence. i dunno what will happen to me today. maybe something good. maybe someone gonan post me few million bucks in my letter box! haha dream on.ok enough of today... the past few days i had trainings and "kenduri" for those of u who noe what it is. kinda tired cos been starting to sleep late again. and im having chest pains. each time i cough it'll be painful and sometimes i feel like vomiting. haiya.. dunno whats hapenning to my body. maybe need some energiser. evrytime SICK. evrytime Said comes here he complains he is SICK. well too bad if any of u is SICK of hearing that im SICK. anyway im SICK of writing this SICK thing. OKAY OKAY like i said earlier im blabbering nonsense~
ok happy thoughts for tomoro~ yeahoo! going out picnic with bukit batok family~ HAHA! long time no enjoy.. tomoro is the day to tan my fair skin~ haha LIKE AS IF IM FAIR~ all of us bringing food and going to unwind at the beach tomoro yeah~ hope its gonna be fun... tink it will be fun.. i hope most of the ppl there wil be going because the more the merrier what~~~ and Sunday got dikir barat show for some mosque.. i dunno which one is it. charity show. ok lah huh since long time never do charity work. there are alot of needy ppl who needs our help out there. dont neglect them ya ppl~ might never noe one us might be the needy one one day.....
hmm ok today is the third week he is gone.. still miss him as much.. especially when looking at his pictures.. actually my heart aches when im writing this.. i just really miss him.. i still have the thought that he is just away on a long vacation and one day i might be able to see him again.. but reality wise that's not the case.. he is totally gone from the surface of this earth. its hard to explain u noe. its just that .. nevermind. i just never knew that his death will have a great impact on me. just too great.. unexplainable. now, i cant see his face anymore.. only pictures and memories can remind me how he looks like. the memory of him breathing out his last breath.. that memory is just too painful for me too bear.. i sometimes think that what happen at the hospital that fatefull day was just a all bad nitemare and i would wake up from it..........
anyway the picture on the left, first black and white picture.. that's me on the left and he is on the rite. that picture was taken by harry besi's camera (i think) after my esplanade show. that was the last day i saw him stand up and walk around although i heard he needed support on his lower back. he was damn sick that day but he insisted on coming down and watch our show. the last show he saw me perform. he gave us two thumbs up. although in that pain that he had inside, which we could not feel, he still made us laugh the way home. never did stop similing. after that nite.. he was paralyzed. Approximately one and a half months after that he went back to God.
well all i can say Man if you a reading this, i hope u r resting in peace and is safe in God's hand. Al-fateha.. amin.
Azman bin Rahmat (1984-2004)
God loves u more
than i do.
will be missing u.
love u bro.
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